Friday, 8 November 2013

So-tun-als-ob


Eigentlich ganz einfach, isn't it?
Footprints, sand between the toes
salt on the lips.
Copyright@H.Gorrisson
Laughter, hands, tiny fingers
fragile and easily broken
Rot, das steht für Mut
das bin ich
maybe
balancing on the rainbow
I've painted in the sky
eating the moon
living of sunshine and recycled dreams
time is running under my skin,
fast
faster, sometimes too fast
raindrops
staccato notes on my head
rising into a crescendo until I'm
almost drowning
but I can still see
kann ich noch immer sehen
kann ich noch immer
smell the spring, sweet and pink
freedom, listen to the children
Flying. 
no clock counts my hours
Loving
Ich lebe.

Friday, 1 November 2013

Adam's lie

"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them" - Gen 1:27

I don't obey.
I was not born to obey.
I am your equal
and it was never in your power
to exact obedience from me.

Blackmoon, created at the same time as the man,
created from the same earth, created to be is partner, created
to be oppressed, denied and forgotten.

There was evening
and there was morning.
But there was never light again.

Not for me
not for any of us
since you destroyed paradise
and turned it into a patriarchy

Medea, Clytemnestra, Mary, I share your fate.
Darkness folds over our gender

I am the true mother
wind spirit, blackmoon, Kiskil-lilla, Lilitu
Lilith
the beginning of the lie
of herstory

Saturday, 5 October 2013

Der Lavendel verblüht.
Image courtesy of franky242@freedigitalphotos.net

Ich atme ein
          aus
   
       Ein
                Aus

Zwischen den Fingern
                   den letzten Duft
   
    Zu meinen Füßen
             Papierblumen.

Friday, 27 September 2013

Allerleirauh

[...] the king looked at her one day
that she resembled his deceased wife [...]
and he suddenly felt a great love for her.
                                           - J.&W. Grimm, 1812-


since mum died
he often cried in his sleep.
he thought I wouldn't hear it.

I stood outside the door
and wished
they were my tears.
my feet were getting cold.

one night
he opened the door
to find me on the corridor
with naked feet, in my nightdress.

he said I could
lie down
next to him
where my mother used to lie
and warm my feet
under the duvet

I lay down next to him
and warmed my feet
under the duvet
that he used to share
with my mum

he touched my face.
the winter was creeping
through the walls
of our castle

he said he would
warm me
so I wouldn’t fall ill
he took off my nightdress
to warm me
with his body


when he was finished
I went into to the bathroom
to wash off
the blood
between my legs

Monday, 23 September 2013

Cinderella or The little glass slipper

  [...]she gave her a pair of glass slippers,
  the prettiest in the whole world.
- C. Perrault, 1697-

On lily feet
I danced at the balls of Grimm, Disney, Perrault
Cinderella,
the princess with the little slippers,
envied by many.

7cm, lotus flower, golden lilies
a pearl
in the hand of someone
who would find hobbling erotic
helplessness alluring
a pearl
in the hand
of a man.

Shoes are children
we offer them on the altar
Guanyin, you hear the women's tears
the cried and the uncried
count how many are mine.

Red bean dumplings
to soften the bones, winter's frost
to numb the feet,
unsuccessfully.
alume, ground almonds, mulberry, roots and urine,
skin, shriveling like a badly folded origami pagoda, toes sewn,
blood and pus, bandaged in a shroud, rotting flesh

days and days, pain and pain,
and no prince to save me.

stumbling across the room, again and again
and
again
until they broke.
bones newly deformed
to fit into these damn shoes of gold, silk, fur, glass

No one envies my big footed sisters
but trust me
cutting off the heel, a toe

that's nothing compared to
golden lilies

the most precious part of me

Monday, 11 March 2013

Walking poem

The red-white barrier never opens for pedestrians, only for cars and theoretically for bikes,
usually not, or last minute: the moment you are just about to crash into it, the pole suddenly rises, nearly hitting your head, beep, beep, beep

turning right at the corner, my old Esprit trainers move in unison with the invisible student rhythm,
before lesson, right in time/ too late/way too late, so late, hurrying is not longer necessary
after lesson, shopping / laundry/work/societies/meeting friends/going out-

I pass a fragile roof (Danger!)
and take a free pen from the bright yellow jacket/weskit, CODE, 99 a week

Fletcher building on the right side, I've never been in there
the pavement looks like a collage of wrapping paper, cigarettes, something that must have been chewing gum a long time ago and has slowly aggregated with the asphalt surface, colourful flyers (CODE, 99 per week) as eye catchers-
'You can't make it spotless'
'See you tonight then.'
'Who cleans that window? How do they do it?'
'...and then I just left him on the dance floor'

Mansion Court comes in sight, with the golden Emblem on top of it and a massive Penis in the window on the third floor,
the wind is blowing in my face, viciously reminding me of the two remaining months until spring,
I nearly lose my hat,
on the right side, it used to be the Interlude,
Cocktails and sticky floor at night time,
in the day, it was just a rundown building, covered by iron railings,
now it's never night time there

I'm nearly on the bridge now, hands in my pockets, forgot my gloves
a construction rail divides the sight on the canal into squares-
'Why is it here?'
'Look, the dead pidgeon.'
©K.M.Kalinowski
'I'm so tired.'

Muddy brown water
rippling in the wind, a duck
tries to swim against the stream, failing
swans, water-skiing
some are taking off, flying over my head,
like Nils Holgersson

The smell of salt
is missing.

Saturday, 23 February 2013

Clicked

Image courtesy of Christian Southworth@FreeDigitalPhotos.net
Fucking rain.
He threw his cigarette butt into a puddle and tried to light a new one.
Click, click.
Fucking lighter.

Eyes were staring at his back.
Click, click.
He turned around.

“What?”
Neil flinched.
“Nothing.”

Click, click.


Click, click.

Neil was still staring at him.

Click, click. Click, Click.
This was driving him crazy.

“Damn it, what do you want?”
Click, click.


“Nothing, I – I thought we could tal-”
“Not now. I'm busy. “

Click, click. Blast the thing!

Neil took a deep breath.

Click, click.

“Dad, I wanted to -”
“Bloody hell, shut up, will you?”
Click, click.

He looked into Neil's face. It was all wet.
Click, click.

“I didn't – I'm not in the mood for talking right now.”

Click, click. He didn't look up again.
The minutes went by.
Click, click.

The lighter clicked with a final noise and inflamed the cigarette. He closed his eyes and inhaled the nicotine.


“Asshole.”
He opened his eyes.
Neil was gone.
His cigarette was soaking wet.
Fucking rain.


Sunday, 10 February 2013

ISS


400km above the earth
Image courtesy of siraphat @ FreeDigitalPhotos.net
110m×100m×30m
28 000 km/h
orbital period 92 minutes and 50 seconds
$100 billion...


Attached to a urinal funnel
sucking freeze-dried chicken
from plastic packets
Ignoring the fire
that has been invented
1 million years ago